• Watched Just for laughs videos with dad. As usual, he banged the couch (or my shoulder) when he found something really funny
• Went into town, and went to nothing but charity shops. I didn’t have much money but I knew I wanted to spoil myself. Charity shops are a great place to shop, believe it or not, and the best part is that the charity shops are close to each other in my city which makes it so much easier
• Went through the heartbreak of trying on some pretty skirts, then coming to terms with the fact that the waist was too big for my tiny body. boo!! so upsetting!
• Because I didn’t have much money (I had £25), sometimes I got a really pretty piece of clothing and I’d get attached to it in the dressing room then had to let it go cos it was too expensive. Man I hate being poor! When will I be rich?
• Sat in the sun surrounded by my shopping bags with some music in my ears (No Sweeter Name, in case you’re wondering) and I just had this deep inner peace. It felt amazing to step back from my busy life and just relax and not rush anywhere. I felt… satisfied and I whispered a simple prayer, thanking God for being with me.

• Made a ham and cheese sandwich (mmm, cheeeeeese…) with a cup of coffee and fell asleep on the couch after watching The Simpsons. Still felt tired after I woke up but I had to go make supper and do the dishes. As usual, my family just wanted to eat and eat. And eat. That is all they want from me – food. 
• We had family altar and had this really simple message about God talking to you in a still small voice. I loved it! Just made me feel more at peace with myself and God. (you can take a listen  http://branham.org/QuoteOfTheDay)

Ok that’s been my day. Nothing too fussy. Just thankful to God for everything really. 

K if you read til the end then wow, I salute you for your patience so THANK YOU:) I’m off to bed now 

[INSERT COOL SIGNING OFF PHRASE HERE… WHICH I DON’T HAVE AT THE MOMENT]

Ciao 

x

• Watched “Don’t tell the bride” during my shift ‘round 1 am. Spoilt bride with a sweet bridegroom. Bride mourned a lot. Annoyed the hell outta me
• Dozed through my shift
• Dozed some more
• Managed to get the residents out of bed ON MY OWN :O for the first time
• Tried not to fall asleep on my bus ride home
• Rumbled on and on about my night shift to my very ill mum
• Talked to the sandwich maker like it’s one of the residents. I said to it, “Come towards me, Darling” the way I do at work. Must. Get. A Life.
• Tried to keep all funeral songs out of my head. And I also tried not to think too much about the bible verse (about FUNERALS!) I just read. Really don’t know why there’s a funeral theme in my brain right now.
• Cried my eyes out after I found out I’m underweight (I knew it already, but I really got to see someone on Supersize vs Superskinny who has a similar diet and she was sooo skinny it made me so emotional) I need to gain more weight and eat more healthy. Oh by the way, I don’t understand why people would want to be a ‘size 0’. I am a ‘size 0’, and I can assure you it does not make me feel good (well maybe a wee bit when I see those super emotional overweight women on telly). Shops hardly stock size 6 clothes and the ones that do are so expensive. I wish I was a bit fatter. Trust me, being a size 0 isn’t all that. Be happy with your weight. You’re beautiful. Don’t let society bully you into being someone you’re not comfortable with. Be YOU. But don’t forget to live a healthy lifestyle though. No one wants to hear you mourn about your ‘fat’ body especially if you did the piling on of calories yourself. 
• Sat on the couch and did nothing but get on tumblr and hit the dashboard button over and over again waiting for something new. 

To Do:

• Get a life